i am more disturbed than i expected to be by the announcement that the infamous aikido brian ex-boyfriend (pictured here drinking a white russian out of a jar at arlie & robin’s, and not to be confused with roommate bryon) is moving back to eugene. i was already pretty sure this town was too small and too full of drama and now i am convinced. i didn’t talk about it in too much detail at the time, but brian moved away (see june 21) at the beginning of the summer i went to france, giving me about three days’ notice, after we had been together for about a year and a half. then for at least six months after that, and long after i had moved on, he persisted in coming to visit and trying to convince me that we had A Future and that we should Discuss It. i was only able to finally get him to stop doing that when i found out that he had been sleeping with his ex-girlfriend in california for about 1.25 of the 1.5 years we were together. i guess that makes her not an ex, huh?
anyway, i am, apparently, still livid about having been lied to for that long. and mostly mad at myself because i should have known. i did know, but he lied to me about it so frequently that i un-knew it.
so now he is moving here, and he is bringing her and her two kids with him. hooray! i’m so excited!
it bothers me that i am still upset about this. but roommate bryon has just concurred that i am allowed to always be angry about the fact that our entire relationship was a huge lie.
and the moral of the story is: once you get out of eugene, never come back.* everything you hate about your past is here.
ok, story time is over. thanks for listening.
i am terribly behind in school. not really on schoolwork, but on feeling like i’m in school. all i have been doing is sitting around moping (yay summer depression fun time!) and … um … watching jeopardy? i don’t know what i’ve been doing. it’s definitely not getting my act together and behaving like i’m taking ten credits and working ~30 hours a week. my second class starts on thursday so it’s time for me to do those things. also to put away last weekend’s laundry, which is in the middle of the floor.
(song: “ana ng,” they might be giants)
* even if there is a nice boy to come back for. i think eugene has an aura of drama and wretchedness like southern california has smog. everyone breathes it in and it infects everything that has ever happened or will happen here.
Well, Jeopardy is fairly exciting lately, with everyone wondering when that guy will finally lose!!
And yeah, Eugene has issues.
Rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Well, I am glad that Bryon was there to concur and make you feel a little better. Because I also concur. I would still be livid, there is no question. You don’t want to carry the anger around with you every day, but you also don’t have to feel un-angry when encountering the thought of that person ever, ever again.
Everything about this situation, past and present, makes me want to scream, “How dare he?!”
yes, mormon guy is still winning bazillions of dollars. he has i think $1,100,000 ish right now. he knows *everything* and he buzzes in really fast. i am afraid he’ll never leave. i also feel bad for the people who are up against him – they don’t even really get a chance.
I could beat him… i’d be like that guy on the holiday inn commercials, but less canadian…
haha, i like that commercial. “uh, what is no?”
i thought you meant brian at first – like you’d beat him up if i wanted you to. i was thinking “well that’s very nice, chris, but i don’t think it would go very well for you.” then i figured it out. hee.