words dry up and fly away
Monday, 28 June, 2004
i just got in a random bad mood, but have been planning to post for days, so i will break the no-posting-when-grumpy rule for today, because there is much news to share!
that’s a joke.
eugene never changes. shelby is a little farther away, and so is andi, but other than that, pretty much everyone that was here last summer is still here, including my bartender john, so it’s almost like i never left. which is strange. i’m even listening to the same albums as last summer, blue horse and yankee hotel foxtrot, with the addition of the first CD i have bought in about a year, her majesty, by the decemberists.
work is going ok now that i think i kind of know what’s going on. i feel like i wasted a lot of time last week because my fieldwork goals are not fully established yet, but now it looks like if it changes it will only be a little bit. i get to make a database! and a web page! and look at lots and lots of collections and get all dusty! yay!
my class for the first part of summer term was postponed, so hasn’t started yet, which is nice because i have a lot of free time to sew. my poncho yarn disappeared but i made two ribbon belts the other day, and i have mostly finished a top, and i’m going to make a blue hoodie. i can’t finish the top until i make a masking-tape-&-pillow-stuffing dressmaker’s dummy. or is it still a dressmaker’s dummy when it’s only a torso and isn’t on a stand? anyway i’m going to make my torso. it involves being all taped up. fun.
(song: “only in the past,” be good tanyas)
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In the catalog under mood/grumpy; mood/knitty; rock&roll
you never know till you try
Tuesday, 15 June, 2004
lesson of the day: if one is very determined and has a church key, one can actually open a can of peaches without a can opener. the key is lots of triangular holes and controlled mangling.
eta in eugene: thursday.
(song: “firefly,” old 97s)
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In the catalog under nothing
as she tumbled down
Sunday, 13 June, 2004
i went to the new spl last week. sho took pictures; i’ll post them or link when/if they are up. i really liked some parts (so much light; the book spiral makes me think interesting things about classification; even the hard plastic chairs are comfortable, and the foam ones are super cushy though they look weird) and had serious reservations about others (scary neon yellow escalators; totally bizarre and uninviting second floor, entirely red; elevators go too fast but strangely require a long wait; the cushy chairs look like they’ll get gross and ratty in about three days), but on the whole i liked it. anyway there has been so much publicity about it that it can only be good for the library in general. yay! scary red and yellow but also bright and cushy and full-of-books library!
also, packing is still miserable (surprise!), but uwajimaya is awesome and i love daifuku.
(song: “all my friends,” counting crows)
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In the catalog under library
every other day is a kick in the shins
Tuesday, 8 June, 2004
i feel neglectful, tho’ i guess it hasn’t been that long since i posted. i think about posting a lot but all the things i think about saying are whiny and negative. so the theme of today’s (brief, because i need to be working on homework) is Balance.
+ my fun paid summer fieldwork is happening! i am not actually getting paid for the fieldwork part, but they are going to hire me for another, mostly unrelated job at 25 hours a week at the-biggest-hourly-salary-i-have-ever-had, which is sadly pretty small for the grown-up world.
- i did not get the lovely job that would have let me stay. there will be others to apply for, though.
+ i am moving to eugene in a week(ish)!
- i have to move!
+ i learned today that i might be able to get sort of grandfathered in to get residency under the old rules, starting in the fall, so the lack of $15,000+ will hardly be a problem at all …
- and then we talked a little more and the counselor sounded more and more unsure about whether i could really get grandfathered in, so i got my hopes up for nothing. will still apply though.
+ a new thought, though, is that i should just go to school until the money they have given me runs out. so i should be back for fall and perhaps winter.
+ fun spring fling last friday with Too Much Cider. there is much discussion and some pictures here. you might have to click around for the real pictures. ignore my terrible, terrible posture and the extreme blinding whiteness of my legs. if you can.
+ i have found a belgian fry stand in seattle. with real belgian fries and real belgian mayonnaise. this is a terrible and wonderful thing.
yay! theme of balance has been replaced with theme of very slightly positiveness! and making up of words!
(song: “roller skate skinny,” old 97s)
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In the catalog under list; nothing
drifts to sleep with a moan and a weep
Friday, 4 June, 2004
it has become clear to me that i am no longer actually interested in this term.
i have a paper due at 9:30 tomorrow morning. clearly, the right thing for me to do this afternoon, then, was to go have some beers with cataloging class. on the way home i picked up my package at the post office, which of course meant that the way to get home involved going by kai’s. accidentally stayed there until after 9. now i have got 1 page and a tiny bit written.
yay! no motivation and no interest! i am ready for this year to be over soon.
tomorrow night is spring fling. blythe wants me to wear a red dress. i’m not sure it’s really an appropriate thing for me to wear right now. must reclaim running shoes from locker at the gym and put them to use.
ok. another page and i’ll be halfway done, and i can have some chocolate.
(song: “billy liar,” the decemberists - the first cd i have wanted to buy in a long time!)
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In the catalog under school
too aware of the pending
Tuesday, 1 June, 2004
oh, now i remember why i was hesitant at first to live with my mom next year. it’s because after about three hours i wanted to walk in front of a bus. she whacked my leg, and i asked why she had done that, and she told me to rephrase the question because i was being defensive.
it’s entirely likely that i am defensive, but that is because i have to defend myself against her. otherwise the conversation will be all about how i’m obese, and i am wearing the wrong clothes and they don’t look good on me, and i shouldn’t be spending so much money (none of which, incidentally, is contributed by her), and i should be planning my future differently, and i’m generally a bad person. well, fine, these things may all be true, but i don’t really feel i have to just sit there and discuss it with her. i cover all those topics quite well all by myself, and i don’t need her help in beating myself up.
anyway, assuming i’m in portland next year, i won’t be living with her any longer than it takes to get a job and a place.
in other news, i have become a non-homework-doing, fiction-reading MACHINE! last week i checked out indian killer on thursday at about 3:30, and i had finished it, AND written about a third of a paper, by midnight. the book was good. intense, easy to read (clearly), and still stuck in my head, five days later. then this weekend i finished eva moves the furniture, whose LC cataloging-in-publication subject headings say it’s about scotland and imaginary friends. also good. sad, and kind of … rainy. i don’t really know what that means. i was down at folklife when i finished that and i had more time to kill, so i bought possession for $2. it is intense in a different way. i had a harder time than usual getting into the writing style, but now that i am used to it, and now that things are actually happening, i think i enjoy it.
now to return to your regularly scheduled taking out of the garbage and packing up of the desk drawers and shelves. boo for moving.
(song: “the past and pending,” the shins)