that’s what we pay him for, that’s why we pray
Thursday, 26 August, 2004
i’m such a wimp.
last night we watched totoro and it was super cute. i supsect that for other people it’s about monsters or spirits or whatever the hell totoro is, but for me it’s about sisters. especially the part where the little one gets lost and the big one is so worried. it made me worried too.
but then the catbus comes and says “next stop, little sister!” and takes the big one to the little one and everyone is ok.
if i had a catbus i would visit my sister all the time.
(song: “flinty kind of woman,” dar williams. radio KoL is good to me - it introduces me to dar williams songs about a posse of pissed-off mamas chopping up some guy who touched their kids. yay!)
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In the catalog under watching; people/family
half of the time we’re gone but we don’t know where
Wednesday, 25 August, 2004
last night we went to see garden state at the bijou. i quite liked it, and not just because of adorable zach braff. it’s just a movie about some people who do some stuff. they drink and they ride around on a motorcycle with a sidecar and they talk a lot. and they don’t know why they do what they do and why they aren’t happy. it made me feel weird. i can’t quite articulate it any better than that right now. but it was a good movie.
i had my exit interview for fieldwork today. it was pretty pointless. we talked about my fieldwork, and then she said i get my three credits, and i said ok, and that was the end of that.
my schedule until leaving is disturbingly full:
tomorrow knit at roma and then at rennie’s.
friday-sunday in seattle
monday pick up u-haul
tuesday leave.
(song: “only living boy in new york,” simon & garfunkel)
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In the catalog under list; watching
but the moment passes as the sun moves on
Sunday, 22 August, 2004
this is the weekend of feeling relieved.
i finished this term’s last (awful) paper on friday night at about 10:30. the feeling after finishing a term is always unfamiliar to me. i can wake up in the morning and lie in bed, or i can get up and do the dishes, or i can sit on the couch and do nothing. it’s not that i don’t do those things even when there is school, but rather that while i am doing them, i always worry about the other things i should be doing. it’s hard to adjust to the feeling of being allowed to do nothing, instead of feeling guilty about it.
and possibly even better than finishing is that it’s raining. it sprinkled all evening at shelby’s barbecue, and then seriously rained all night — i kept hearing the rain when i woke up in the night and going back to sleep happier for it. now it is still sort of drippy outside, not enough for me to wish for my umbrella, which i left in seattle, but still enough to make me smile about it.
actually, it makes me kind of weirdly nostalgic. sitting at espresso roma doing internship work — for money, now, not for credits, yay! — looking out the window at grey. at least i’m not doing the linguistics homework of the devil, on which i spent so many hours here.
my new CDs arrived last week. dear catastrophe waitress by belle & sebastian = cute and fluffy but kind of depressing at the same time. two-way monologue by sondre lerche makes me feel strange, like i am missing something important somewhere else in the world, or maybe it’s right in front of me but i can’t see it. satellite rides by the old 97s is a fabulous album that makes me want to jump around and sing and i am so excited for them to come to the showbox in november. everyone needs a few healthy obsessions.
moving is in ten days. being able to do it in stages makes a huge difference in my attitude about it.
(song: “baseball,” ozma.)
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In the catalog under school; weather
a fine and fancy ramble to the zoo
Tuesday, 17 August, 2004
i guess it’s ok that no one was around to email me last week, because i actually got some things done. i just turned in an assignment two days early! this never happens to me. it was a really easy assignment, but still. now i only have to research, start, and finish a ten-page paper for friday, and also come up with a silly write-up of my fieldwork.
today i went for a walk with my fieldwork boss. he is the reason i am in library school, and he is a really awesome guy, so he always kind of intimidates me. we had just gone over the first draft of the silly report i am writing, and then we went to roma and had some chai and walked to the graveyard. we talked about library school, and how i don’t know if i’m really getting what i want out of it, but i don’t know exactly what i want so maybe it’s ok. he said he would contact his old mentor from when he was in library school and get recommendations for other courses or little programs or things i could do to get more experience in the special-collections related world, like rare book school or a two-week session to get archival certification somewhere in california. so i felt happy and not intimidated. if he’s willing to share his mentor, maybe he doesn’t hate me after all.
i can’t find the site for the two-week archival certification program, though, and i’m too tired to look properly. am going to bed.
(song: “at the zoo,” simon & garfunkel)
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In the catalog under school; work
get from the things i do to the things i should
Friday, 13 August, 2004
how am i supposed to waste time all day if no one is around to email me? it’s ridiculous. you don’t have other things to do! you don’t need to work! you need to email me!
i seem to have injured the surface of my tongue by eating too much homemade garlic vinaigrette. it feels like i ate about five pounds of sour candy or sweet tarts or something. ow.
to keep me busy until new cds arrive, i have discovered kingdom of loathing radio (it’s winamp). kingdom of loathing is a fun, silly html-based adventure game. it is full of wacky song and pop culture and movie references and all the art is stick figures. go play it! or, if not, listen to the radio station, which, depending on the dj, is pretty good.
(song: “all my friends,” counting crows)
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In the catalog under nothing
he still found time to write to her
Thursday, 12 August, 2004
there is not much news on the three-bean salad front today, except that i am going to make a whole bunch tonight and take it to stephanie’s potluck. i have never actually been to a potluck before, and i am excited to have a yummy thing to take!
even if it is a toga potluck. my sheets have flowers on them. it will be the lamest toga ever.
yesterday a stitch n bitch with andi & stephanie & stephanie’s cute boyfriend devolved into a bar night at rennie’s with half the math department, just like old times. it was made even more nostalgic by the fact that i should have been at home writing a paper which is due tonight at midnight and which is currently only 10% done.
you can tell when i have a lot of crap to do, because i start posting more often …
(song: “our love,” rhett miller. hurry the hell up, new CDs!!!)
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In the catalog under people/pals
you have a word for every woman you can lay your eyes on
Wednesday, 11 August, 2004
i want shelby’s barbecue to come so i can make three-bean salad for it. i want to make three-bean salad all the time every day. i want to think up boring things to blog about. i want to sing dar williams loudly. i do not want to do my work.
yesterday at the grocery store i finally bought one of those little steamer thingies and i love it so much. i had broccoli for lunch! with the fabulous garlicky dressing!
countdown to moving: 3 weeks exactly!
(song: “as cool as i am,” dar williams)
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In the catalog under food
perhaps he’s dead, i’ll just make sure
Tuesday, 10 August, 2004
twice now in about a week, bugs have crawled out of the couch, or from the floor via the couch, onto my leg. the first one was an earwig, super awful ew gross, and this time it was an ant. the worst part is it makes me scream like a girl.
(song: “boris the spider,” the who)
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In the catalog under nothing
i’ve got a weak heart
i don’t remember now why i started to post. safeway’s $3 wine isn’t nearly as good as my beloved two buck chuck. roommate bryon and i are ostensibly doing homework but really watching the season finale (i think) of joe schmo, which is funny but ethically questionable.
i made fabulous three- (actually four-) bean salad this evening from a slightly modified recipe from robin, including kidney, garbanzo, white, and yummy fresh green beans. the dressing was the best part though - homemade white wine vinaigrette with lots of fresh garlic, yum. i really should modify knitblog to be knit- and craft- and cook-blog.
(song: “don’t let’s start,” they might be giants)
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In the catalog under watching; food
you’re a long way from where you belong
Monday, 9 August, 2004
also, this morning i have had nothingness for about an hour already, and it has not gone away like it usually does. i feel like i do everything wrong and i am too easily distracted and i have no control over what i do or think or feel. but i don’t know why i have this today. i didn’t do anything stupid.
(song: “the el,” rhett miller. i really need to get some new music.)