all so very dangerous; i can’t stay away
Wednesday, 29 September, 2004
it turns out the tall boots i bought on sunday afternoon were not an unjustified indulgence, but rather a preemptive celebration: i have gotten a job! yes, i did already have a job, but now i have a better job! i liked my job at special collections, and of course i loved working there, but this job includes benefits, a huge (by my sad standards) stipend, and (this is the important part) a full tuition waiver.
this means i can stay in school!
forever!!
school starts tomorrow. i don’t yet know what i’m taking exactly. it will depend on whether i can get into a really exciting class that i have to register for at six tomorrow morning. thus, to bed. next installment: how lauren went back to high school and did not die.
(song: “tightly,” my girlfriend neko case)
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In the catalog under school; work
problems with easy solutions
Sunday, 19 September, 2004
i love library school because here, “i want to finish my book” is a valid excuse for not going out to the bar.
(song: “the new year,” death cab for cutie)
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In the catalog under school
i’m so tired, and i wish i was the moon tonight
Friday, 17 September, 2004
if i can figure out all her wacky slang, i will be translating some comics for madame fa. i think her drawings are adorable.
lately my laptop has decided to refuse to recognize when it’s plugged in, so all it does is drain the battery forever and not recharge. right now it has only enough battery to turn on, tell me it’s about to die, and turn itself back off again. awesome. it is mostly just an annoyance at the moment, and not an actual problem yet, except that there’s a thank-you letter on there that i have to submit to the ischool awards committee by the 24th, or i won’t get my $3000 scholarship. while $3000 won’t keep me in school another term, it will keep me housed and fed for more than a term, which will be nice. with that and the work study i got, i should be able to stay in school through winter term.
(song: “i wish i was the moon,” neko case)
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In the catalog under mood/grumpy; computers
maybe maybe i’ve got a problem, maybe my heart’s a liar
i dreamed i was in scotland, and i met a grizzled old fisherman who told me all about scottish politics. then i went to an american ex-pat bar and asked them how to go about getting citizenship there. but when i left i was in hungary. i was confused because i want to visit hungary, but i don’t want to live there; i want to live in scotland. i was afraid the advice i had just gotten about citizenship was all wrong because i had actually asked ex-pats in hungary, and it would be different than for scotland.
today i have to/get to go to work. yay. i start officially on monday but i have to go in and learn what has changed over the summer. i imagine it won’t take very long so i am going to take my book and perhaps finish it before i meet up with blythe at 2.
(song: “bird in a cage,” old 97s)
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In the catalog under nothing
waits another week to fall apart
Wednesday, 15 September, 2004
last night as i walked home from john & laura’s house, it was cold and windy and the air smelled like a wood stove. it was comforting and wintry and i was happy.
it was also winter on saturday night as i stood outside the art museum in the middle of the night in the rain. they had a really great exhibit all summer, but i didn’t make it there to see it until the night before it left. fortunately the museum stayed open all night on saturday, so sho and phoebe and i got there at about 11, and proceeded to stand in line for an hour and a half.
the exhibit included a few well-known pieces - caf� terrace at night and some portraits of the roulin family. the ones i liked best, though, were ones i had never heard of and can’t find online. one was an early drawing called “corner of a garden,” and one was an oil painting called something like “garden in the asylum in saint-r�my.”
the exhibit was more than just van gogh, of course, and i enjoyed the rest of it though i am not so much one for cubism. there were quite a few mondrians, a couple of which i also liked a lot.
being at the art museum at 2 in the morning made me feel kind of grown up and hip - i’m really glad i made it before the exhibit left, even though i had a sore throat the next day from standing in a downpour in sandals at midnight.
i have just returned from retrieving the last of my furniture from its various locations all over seattle. my desk, dresser, and chair were at scott’s, and now they are here, so now i get to put clothes away. it’ll be fun!
(song: “american girls,” counting crows)
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In the catalog under life; weather
i would be, i should be, but how?
Thursday, 9 September, 2004
there was just a trailer for garden state and it made me sad. i don’t know why. maybe it’s the song, which might be the one that makes shelby cry. or maybe it’s the movie. i was thinking about it today - i think it is meant to make people like me identify with it. people who don’t have a place yet - i mean not just a physical place, but also a job-place and a relationship-place and a self-place. lately i think a lot about how much i want a place, and how far away i am from it. it used not to bother me, but people around me are starting to find their places, and it is a little disorienting. i wonder if i will ever have a place. i’m not sure.
(song: “one of these things first,” nick drake. the movie’s soundtrack is also quite good.)
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In the catalog under nothing; mood/unsure
slightly bored and severely confused
since my sister left, i have been practicing being very broke. i have tiny bits of birthday money right now, so it’s ok that i spent ~$12 on drinks last night, but really i should have been practicing hanging out with drinking people yet not drinking. maybe i shall start tonight. i have been doing quite well at eating at home, and eating lots of cheap food that needs cooking (mostly rice) rather than easy but more expensive things (like soup). i have to find out about food stamps - i have been hearing conflicting information about whether students can get them, but damn, $141 a month for food would be so helpful.
yesterday internet and television arrived at our apartment. hooray! i shall continue trying to think of things to talk about, preferably interesting ones.
(song: “sleeping in,” the postal service. sometimes i forget about this album, but then i get to rediscover it, which is fun, because it’s so good.)
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In the catalog under nothing
of everything i am and of some things i am not
Sunday, 5 September, 2004
hey, look, i have a blog! i wonder what i should do with it? maybe post?
moving to seattle has been accomplished with a minimum of misery. the worst part was loading the u-haul all by myself in the middle of the afternoon. everyone was very helpful so between all five of us it only took us a little over an hour to unload both my stuff and john & laura’s. sho (who needs to update) stayed for a couple of days and then i had a day off to do five (!) loads of laundry before my sister arrived, armed with piles of homework to finish. mostly we have just been sitting around in coffee shops and i have been internetting and she has been reading henderson the rain king.
meanwhile, i have read much also. i reread jane eyre, which i love, and i finally finished from hell, which i had been reading for at least six months. still not sure what i thought about it. and am currently continuing my brontë kick with wuthering heights.
other than books, i can think of nothing else to discuss. there will not be internet at home until wednesday or so, so in the meantime i will try to think of things to talk about.
(song: “track you down,” sondre lerche)